A Look Into my Personal Journal

I found this semi song that I wrote when I was 16. It’s not amazing or anything, but just wanted to share, that’s what blogs are for after all, aren’t they?

Back story, I grew up with the goal of guarding my heart for my future husband. This song came to me while I was struggle with feelings for someone, even though I was too young to consider  a relationship. It’s my thoughts and words to that person. Here it is. Don’t cringe to hard, and remember guys, this is a song, there was a melody behind it, but I’m not going to write that down. XD

I’m only sixteen, I don’t have time for you.
I’m sixteen, what do you want me to do?
What do you want me to do?

I’m sixteen years old, I don’t got much experience.
No.
I haven’t lived long,
I’m still waiting for my life to
Unfold.

But now you knock on my heart.
You want something from me.
I’ve already told you,
I don’t have time for you.

Chorus:
I’m guarding my heart,
I won’t let you in.
I’m guarding my heart,
I won’t let you in!

I’m only sixteen!
I don’t have time for you,
I’m sixteen,
What do you want me to do?
I’ve got things to do!
Chorus Ends

I’m living my golden years.
I’m trying to use them wisely.
I’m trying to serve,
I’m trying to grow.
You must understand I’m busy

But you’re knocking on my heart.
You want something from me.
I already told you,
I don’t have time for you!

Chorus here.

Life is knocking at my door.
It’s calling for me to explore.
I need to go out,
I need to shine!

I’m sorry,
I can’t let you in.
I’m busy.
And I’m only 16.

Chorus:

I’m only sixteen
And I’ve got things to do.
I’m sixteen
But I don’t mind you.
I’m sixteen, and that’s too young.

So that’s why I have to say
Goodbye.

Chorus Ends

Translation of my teen emotions: I have things I need to be focusing on right now. Being too young to have a relationship with a guy, I’m not called to daydream about the moment when I will reach that point. He’s wasting my time.

It is played out like a drama, the girl tells him no, he doesn’t give up. The girl tells him no again, yet he is still persistent. He’s making it hard for her. But ultimately he isn’t doing anything at all, it’s all in her heart.

In the end, without mentioning it, the song is actually about me singing to my crush, to my feelings themselves, and not the guy. He made no moves, I made no moves, but the feelings were still there and in the end I said goodbye.

Anyway, I hope you guys enjoyed peaking into my personal journal of my teenage years. This is not the diary entry mentioned in Wednesday’s post. I’m consistently posting every Wednesday, but if I feel like it I post in between sometimes.

Toodles. XD
~Libby

4 Comments

  • That’s really good!

    • Thank you! I was pretty wrapped up in the moment and had to express myself somehow. I did that, and still do, mostly in my writing.

  • Wow. That’s a fantastic song. Great job!
    I’d love to hear the tune sometime. 😀

    • Thank you Megs,

      I’m not sure how I would get the tune online. It’s just something I made up in my head and nothing special. Although sometimes I find myself humming it, and it’s pretty funny, cause I’m defiantly not 16 anymore. XD

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